One gal's record of trying to pay much closer attention to the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

(...with a sprinkling of accounts from her outrageously blessed life with THE best husband in the world!)




30 June 2006

Clarity

I'm emotional today.

Don't laugh at me! This is weird! I don't normally get emotional like this. Sure, I have emotions, I'm a woman! But I can usually say "ok, that thing happend and now I'm sad," or "such-n-such occured and now I'm angry." But today I just feel completely a jumble of unclear feelings, some of which seem to be extremely happy, others of which seem to be sorrowful. I don't know what brought it all on. I can't identify any triggers. And I don't like it.

By the way, I'm not pregnant, so don't ask.

I can't put another title on it except "confusion."

Ask my husband - when I can't figure something out, I get real out of sorts. If I can't see the logic in a situation, I grow very angsty.

Well I'm angsty today, dangit. I'm not used to this and it doesn't make any sense. I don't know which way's up. Anybody got any hints? Maps? Road signs?

How about a guide book? I got one. And it's pretty clear about which way's up:

"Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him, and he will act." --Psalm 37:5
Simple enough. My feelings may not be clear, but I can commit my way to God and trust him, and he will act on my behalf.

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