I'm just back from another bout with my thyroid disease. Something's gone wrong and I found myself on my back and remembering very little of my weekend. Nothing has changed in my treatment regemine, so the only explaination is that my thyroid has begun to "wind down", thus making my current dose of medicine insufficient. This is a frightening thought, but the only solution at present is to up my medication dosage and keep an eye on me.
This uncertainty and constant battle with the symptoms of my disorder sure do keep me in the boxing ring with sin. I'm tempted to all sorts of things, cheifly fear - fear that I'll never be well. Yet the truth is I won't ever be well. This is a chronic disorder that rarely 'just goes away' (though that has happened). Chances are I won't ever be cured of this - I'll be managing it for the rest of my life.
Dreary, dreary prospect. However, As I've come to realize this won't 'just go away', I've grown in my desire to walk through it in a way that pleases God. And, as always, when that's our desire, God is never far behind with the equipment we need to do it.
Recently a pastor/author named John Piper was diagnosed with prostate cancer. On the eve of his surgery, he wrote a letter to his church which was later turned into an article called "Don't Waste Your Cancer." Later, Dr. David Powlison, the editor of the Journal of Biblical Counseling, recieved the same diagnosis, and the morning after he recieved the news he added his thoughts to Pastor Piper's. You can read their article by going to one of my favorite blogs, GirlTalk, and clicking on the link they have there. The perspectives and cousel of these wise men have been very helpful to me as I walk through my own, less severe ailment.
"Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint." --Isaiah 40:28-31
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